I Lost My Way by Yasmin Mogahed

Alhamdulillah I finished this book. Actually this is a very simple book. Very simple English written. I believed this is one of the simplest motivational book. Eventhough it has 12 chapters but every chapter has on the point content. I went to her talks before and reading this book its like hearing her voice all over again. I admired her. The way she explained things in life. Suddenly to me everything make sense. There are a lot of times when somethings happened, they left me puzzled. Most of the time I don't understand whats going on around me. Most of the time I questioned myself with so many whys. Believed me when I say most of the time I walked on earth clueless. With whats happening in my own country and the whole world. I felt so helpless sometimes. I wanted to do something but I don't know where to start, how to begin and whom to refer to. But books like this helps me a lot. It making sense on why it happended the way it supposed to be.

What I've learned - we can't change the world, we can't change people but we can change ourselves. There are a lot of things that we cannot control. So we have to let it go. It is for the best. Best for our mind and soul. Sometimes we have to sit back and let God All Mighty handle everything. Even if it is not to our liking. But He knows best. We just have to do our own part in this world. Take care of ourselves. Who knows by taking care of our ownselves mentally, spiritually and physically, we, in the end could bring some positive changes in people around us. Thats the benefits for us and the world in the end.

The New 2019

Selamat Tahun Baru 2019.

Semoga kehidupan tahun ini menjadi lebih baik lagi dari tahun yang sebelumnya.

Tahun barun ni I do  hope agar I dapat hadapi segala rintangan dgn lebih baik berbanding tahun2 sebelumnya.

Tahun sebelum ini, I did react badly everytime challenges occured. There were times I questioned kenapa ia harus berlaku to me. I mcm tak boleh nak accept. And in returned, I do a lot of nonsense things.

But on the flip side, I did a few things which I planned to do few years down the road. But an opportunity occured to make it happened last year. And this year I already had in my mind a few projects which will kept me occupied throughout the year.

And due to that, I made a concious effort to disangage myself from few social media such as Facebook and Instagram at least for this whole year. I made this decision after some indepth thought. Firstly I cannot gainned and gave benefits to the community out there. Secondly, I am afraid I cannot uphold my intention. Who knows down the road my selfless intention will become a selfish persue.

When I was an active instagrammer, I usually read and re-read my feeds so many times because I wanted it to be something that brought benefits to someone out there. If I felt some uneasiness on certain feeds, I usually deleted them. I am afraid if what I wrote in the name of goodness were actually seen as arrogant in the eyes of Allah. I'm afraid what I wrote and will write will become my burden sins that will eat me up in Hereafter.

That's why I decided to take myself off from social media because I worried I cannot control myself. The intention is to finish my mission Insya-Allah this year and will see what happen along the way.

I just wanted to focus on my blog writing as I considered this a platform to familirize myself in writings.

My new year resolutions actually are not too complicated as I used to have. Just some basic simple and achieveable goals. Insya-Allah. Ameen...